Everything is Too expensive and unfair.

Well, we just made it through one of the most emotional Mercury retrogrades. There were tears, there was rage, there was laughter. Sometimes I even danced in between. It really asked us to look at the places in our life where we we’re not feeling valued, that deep internal space of the 4th House of Cancer. Everything in the world around us influences us whether we realize it or not. Our triggers can be deeply ingrained, that we don't even realize when somebody does something else and it will set a chain reaction of our emotions off. When all we want is softness, compassion, kindness, caring and to burrow into ourselves. The world was asking us to pause and really identify those emotional states that can destroy our relationships, the unwise speech and assumptions of tone. Why is it always something?

I know my home definitely got an upgrade, and I really loved picking up new plants recycling, composting old vegetation. But I have to say the strange maggot explosion on my deck was very unprecedented and uncomfortable. As if that was a microcosm of the external world where maggots are flying at you and then they all become flies; then flies are all up in your space. The spiritual meaning of flies takes many flavors. They're a nuisance, asking us to call attention to something. Like many insects they go from larva to winged, going through a period of transformation. Yet they're also part of the decay process, going in a goop like form to reestablish the boundaries and the structures that are needed. Sometimes it shows us where there is neglect, but how we can persevere to be resilient. It can be just so overwhelming, feeling like a gigantic shadow is over coming you and there's nothing to do but cry. Yet, somehow the only way is through. Identifying the impurity in our life whether it's external, internal or somewhere in between; we are reminded of our mortality and the spirit realm.

How much can we tolerate or how much have we been tolerating that we don't need to be tolerating. Life is difficult enough without adding external suffering; there's things coming at us six ways from Sunday and yet we decide to be upset over something so inane. Shit fucking happens and it's gonna keep happening, until one day we get up and we say you know what I am not under siege and I do have control and power. I just need to know where to apply it. If Mitch McConnell can still pretend he's alive and protect his seat in the Senate, you can do so much work from your fugue state in bed. I admit I do get irritated when I hear people say there's nothing I can do so I might as well detach. It's not uncommon, rather very easy to try to do that rather than engage and pay attention. But honestly if you're CAUSASIAN, I don't think you really have the choice to anymore. And yes, I will bring race into it because we live in America which was founded on the backs of black slaves,’ genocide of Native Americans and underpaid labor of Chinese Americans. Being white is not a race, we shouldn't take offense to it. It's a mentality in its amalgamation of several different countries that present with less melanin in their skin and the “right type” of skin color. Also, it channels back to class and wealth because there is a “wrong type” of white, but yet they will try to convince you that you are one of them.

Let's not get into this race debate but refocus our attention on the inequality of wealth, we are facing a mass extinction on our planet and the people who are wealthy know it because they have access to that information. Part of being in an upper class is receiving certain things that the lower classes do not; immunity from sex crimes, the ability to launder and avoid tax. Secrecy and to surveil the other classes. And if this is also new to you, that you think this is a conspiracy; I urge you to do your own research rather than coming into comments and arguing as that will not be tolerated. Not because I am unafraid of what is said, but because I have done such extensive research on this current state of tipping point that it would be a waste of my time to do so. As we are headed into very harsh weather and there is already flooding and wildfires ravaging most of America, rather than turning towards hate and anger I would say let's all find compassion for one another. We are not going to survive without one another and coming together against the small population of very wealthy people who wish to maintain power and control over us. The boogeyman is what they've created us all to become to avoid looking at what's really going on.

We need to support one another, have compassion and empathy for one another and create our own forms of generational wealth that do not require: alcoholism, generational trauma, rape, incest and other horrible control mechanisms of old money. The patriarchy must die and we will kill it by investing in ourselves in a matriarchal system.